Unsent Letters

Friends

You have become one of my bestest friends.

The other day I found myself being honest with you. I was sad and fustrated and scared and I let you in at that moment and it scared me even more.

It's wonderful to laugh and be honest with each other the way we are. You are a great friend. But when it comes to certain emotions I'm scared to share them with anyone. I'm scared maybe once I start letting some of them go that they may all come rushing out. And that's no fun, it's just a burden and I don't want to be a burden.

And sometimes when I am sad the bestest thing for me is you making me laugh.

And I don't want to need you.

As with everything I just keep thinking that it's just a matter of time so let me back up now before I get hurt. Stupid me though, I'd be hurting regardless so I guess I should say before it would hurt even more.

I guess the way I see it is I benefit so much from you but have nothing to offer in return so why do you bother?

And I want to be honest about the way I see things but I don't think I can.

If I wasn't so selfish I would be honest and just say how I feel because I know you'd tell me how silly it is. And you'd make fun of me and all would be right in my world.

Thank you for being such a good friend. I only hope I return the favor someday.

K revealed herself at 8:38 AM